Thursday, July 8, 2010
Life's Not a Teddy Bear Picnic
Was told I would need to go back to Dr. Gnome in St. Louis again. I can't even face the thought of the drive for the appointment and then the logistics if anything had to be done. Too much to do this summer for work, no time to take for non emergency treatment. Ah well, I will go be sad for a while longer, as my self pity day is not done yet, even though my family would think I was being self indulgent and selfish. Yes I am, and I have given myself permission to be so today.
The teddy bear picnic song and dreams were a theme throughout my hospitalization this time, maybe because I was so hungry! I kept having drugged dreams about the teddy bear picnic, maybe wishing I could go out in the woods in disguise and have a picnic with the teddy bears!