Monday, July 19, 2010
Phoning It In
I see my PCP tomorrow afternoon, and the A-Team on Thursday. Not sure if anything medical remains to be done that I have not done already. Tonight I am ready to throw in the towel, call it quits, run for the border, retire prematurely. I would except for two things - 1) I am not independently wealthy and 2) I wouldn't leave my company in the lurch. Things are not as they should be as far as training others on what I know/do. Just a little more and I think they will be able to fly away on their own. And as for the independently wealthy part, I could work at a job closer to home, or try to consult - have done it before, can do it again - just with every body part in revolt I hate to start a new endeavor, and it would probably be 18 months to see if I qualify for permanent disability.
I just need to suck it up once more, splash cold water in my face, eat a couple more saltines, go to bed and go to work tomorrow. One bad thing about an inflamed pancreas - its kinda smooshy and ouchy and the more I move the more it hurts regardless of how little I eat. I think I will just gird up the pancreas and push onward regardless!