Friday, December 31, 2010

Working Towards Better Attitude

Neurontin Day 2

Galatians 5:11
...the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness
Bible, New International Version (©1984)
Trying today to focus on positive aspects of my life.  I need to reach down deep and start moving forward again.  I really feel like I am on a treadmill - running and running but getting nowhere fast.  I have the scripture above hanging on the wall of my office where I can glance at it throughout the day.  I remind myself that I need to be patient and kind, steadfast and faithful in my dealings with customers and with my coworkers and family. 

Day 2 Neurontin

The leg pain has been flucutaing throughout the day, sometimes not bad, sometimes horrendous.  I have had to do the dance of pain several times today.  The pelvic pain is a little improved, but remains excruciatingly present.  The neurontin has increased the diarrhea and nausea is constant.  I am dizzy and having trouble focusing my eyes.  The burning is almost gone in my feet, but the sharp stabbing pains persist.  I am having new pain in The Belly and pray it is not pancreatitis again.  I am sleepy but I can't fall asleep.

Having hives again this evening, not as bad as yesterday.  Am going to bed in a few minutes. I feel really brain damaged this evening, suspect it is the medication, so I hope what I have written is comprehensable. I will try to sleep it off tonight   Hoping you all have pain free days and restful nights.


  1. Still praying that the Neurontin is a piece of your puzzle.
    Attitude seems like almost too much to have to worry about when you're in the midst of the pain. Shouldn't everyone just understand? Our pain boxes us in. It really seems to me like the pain should be more than enough.
    You know your attitude continuously amazes me so as always hang in there.

  2. Kristin: As long as I can live with the side effects, I am happy with any reduction in pain.

    Trying to refocus AWAY from the pain and on something I CAN change - my internal compass! I'm a work in progress, but thanks for the words of encouragement.

  3. I feel so bad for you. I do, because I know the pain you speak of. Nerve pain is horrible. I wish they could find something to ease it. Neurontin has never been good for me. Side effects are horrible. I am on a fentanyl pain patch. I don't know if it really helps or not. I am afraid to try without it. I have been on it for 5 yrs plus.
    Hang in there Winny and we will pray for a better 2011. I am sure hoping it's better.I wish for sleep and rest for you tonight. Happy New Year my friend.

    God Bless~
    Debbie Jean

  4. Debbie Jean: Don't blame you on not trying to see what life is like without the fentanyl. Nerve pain STINKS!

    I had too many side effects from neurontin before but I'm trying it again. The digestive problems have not been pleasant nor have the whacked out eyes. But I am having some pain relief so that's a plus. Hoping if I stuff it down my craw enough times the side effects will get better instead of worse!!! Just about to try day 3 dose....sigh.

    Have a great new year Debbie Jean!!! 2011 must surely be a better year!

  5. I hope that this new year is a turning point for you.

  6. Princes OEATS: Hoping that too!!! Thanks!

    Hoping you and yours have a great next year. Looking forward to more trash to treasure ideas - when I go treasure hunting I try to see the possibilities but you are much much much better at it than I!