Tuesday, December 7, 2010
Dejavu All Over Again
I tried to go off the pain medication last night/this morning, but got very shakey with burning terrible pelvic pain and leg pain. Vomiting also, with a great deal of nausea. Hoping that I have not gotten a physical dependence on this already, as I have not been taking it steadily, everyday, or on schedule. The nausea stayed with me even after taking a dose of medication this morning, but the pelvic pain did decrease to the point I could actually think of something besides the pain.
Went to my PCP this morning to do a urinalysis since I can't tell if I have a urinary tract infection or not. Nope, no infection. Was hoping this was the cause of the terrible pain and nausea and vomiting. I fear that The Belly is acting up and my pancreas is trying to get into the act again. Not good. Can't win for losing with pain pills. I should take one every 12 hours but have only been taking one a day when I absolutely cannot stand the pain any longer so haven't been taking one every day. Have been taking nausea medication but have been thowing that up too. sigh.
Talked with my boss today about my ongoing pain issues since I am not sure when this will relent. The Legs are being very stubbon this time. It's like they are flat tires and I am afraid they won't reinflate and work again and I'm having to go around on that tiny little spare tire you can only drive so fast on. My boss was so nice and understanding and I feel so sad that I can't make my legs go and whip into work and get things done. Hoping that I will snap back out of this and the pain will be manageable again soon.
I feel this fall like I'm in the movie Groundhog Day with Bill Murray - the same day keeps playing over and over again and I don't seem to be getting the process down pat so I can escape. Oh well, at least I like Sonny and Cher!