Monday, October 18, 2010

Falling Leaves

Falling Mood

Having a melancholy day today.   Feeling sick, feeling down.  It's raining, cool wet rain. Leaves are turning colors and falling in a turning twisting cascades. It's my favorite time of year, but I'm not feeling it. I am feeling icky instead.

Very tired tonight, not sure why. I have been having my normal non-sleeping nights with The Headache, so I am at a normal rate of sleep deprivation.  My antibiotics are helping some of my abdominal pain but my puffiness is continuing unabated.  Maybe my puffination is taking energy from somewhere else and putting it towards poofy puffy cheeks and cankley chunky feets??  I feel like the giant Stay Puft marshmallow man from Ghostbusters.

I actually napped yesterday. I never ever nap.  Yet my tiredness yesterday was the same as it is today.  I just don't know what is causing this.  The Headache has been on medium high today, but not to the "must medicate" point.  Maybe this is what is wearing me down?  I am walking through quicksand with each step forward getting harder and harder to do.  I feel very very shakey and weak.   Bleh...  Blech... Blah...

Worked from home today because I had to take a relative to a physical therapy appointment.  Will do that again Wednesday.  May have to do this the rest of the month while we try to arrange rides. I'm glad my relative is getting some help with his physical issues, seems to have a great physical therapist.  Doing something with "primitive reflexes" whatever that is, but seems to already be helping him.  Said this problem is often misdiagnosed as fibromyalgia (one of many diagnosis my relative has had).

Trying to be ready to roll into work early tomorrow for a couple of meetings/conference calls.  Just feel like I don't have the umph to fight my way out of a wet paper bag tonight, but want to be bright, cheery for work.  I love my work, I love my bosses - today just has been a hard day for whatever reason. I want to shake that blah feeling off and be my usual perky loud self tomorrow.  I even let a client get under my skin in a bad way today - which has only happened a few times in the eight years I have worked at this job.   Maybe the moon signs are wrong.

I'm a true Debbie Downer tonight.  I know in the grand scheme of things one bad day is just a blip on the screen, but right now my sonar just can't see past this blipping bad day.    Tomorrow is another day....tomorrow will surely be better!!

12 comments:

  1. Hope you had a peaceful sleep dear one. Here with you always listening. Blessings and hugs.

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  2. GW/JBR: Sleep was good. I may be going down from Stay Puft size to Michelan Man today!

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  3. yup..I logically agree that one bad day is but a blip ....but being there doesn't make it small.

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  4. Just Me: Some blips are bumpier than others, mine is slowly going towards the horizon away away away....Hoping yours is shrinking too!!!

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  5. I have not hit the climax of the crest yet, now that can be a good thing or a bad thing..as I picture it like a blip on a screen I am somewhere still in the building up of it..time will tell , I guess, if I will calmly slide down from the crest or dive right off. I really do not know as yet.

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  6. Just Me: Wishing you happy landings and happy times.

    You may need a ground crew to assist so get some help!!! Sometimes it takes a full crew to turn a ship around...

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  7. Love the video :) If I knew how to attach pictures, I'd put in a picture of a bulldog in a Stay Puft costume. Pretty funny.

    I hope you are feeling better. From the post after this one it sounds like you're a little more "deflated" than in this post.

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  8. Heather: Still a little Stay Puft puffy today.

    I can just see a bull dog with the little Stay Puft hat on its big head and a square Stay Puft sailor collar on!!! Awwwww.

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  9. I always nap! Wish I didn't...but I constantly feel run down. =( Sorry you had an icky day...the fall leaves sound lovely though. I miss the seasons...something we don't get here in Florida.

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  10. My niece in Florida Loves the no winter thing, but I think she misses fall.

    I watch other family members nap and wake up refreshed, not my experience with napping. I've always worked or gone to school AND worked, or worked and worked so napping was a luxury I never was able to take adavantage of!!

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  11. Well my career allows me to only work 3 days a week, so the other days I nap...since 12-14 hr shifts when I am at work kill me! However...most times when I nap...I feel like shit when I try to wake up! =(

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  12. I don't think I could do long shifts like that anymore. That was one reason I switched careers in my mid 40's.

    I always feel worse after a nap -not sure why. maybe I just want to keep sleeping!

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