Monday, October 18, 2010
Having a melancholy day today. Feeling sick, feeling down. It's raining, cool wet rain. Leaves are turning colors and falling in a turning twisting cascades. It's my favorite time of year, but I'm not feeling it. I am feeling icky instead.
Very tired tonight, not sure why. I have been having my normal non-sleeping nights with The Headache, so I am at a normal rate of sleep deprivation. My antibiotics are helping some of my abdominal pain but my puffiness is continuing unabated. Maybe my puffination is taking energy from somewhere else and putting it towards poofy puffy cheeks and cankley chunky feets?? I feel like the giant Stay Puft marshmallow man from Ghostbusters.
I actually napped yesterday. I never ever nap. Yet my tiredness yesterday was the same as it is today. I just don't know what is causing this. The Headache has been on medium high today, but not to the "must medicate" point. Maybe this is what is wearing me down? I am walking through quicksand with each step forward getting harder and harder to do. I feel very very shakey and weak. Bleh... Blech... Blah...
Worked from home today because I had to take a relative to a physical therapy appointment. Will do that again Wednesday. May have to do this the rest of the month while we try to arrange rides. I'm glad my relative is getting some help with his physical issues, seems to have a great physical therapist. Doing something with "primitive reflexes" whatever that is, but seems to already be helping him. Said this problem is often misdiagnosed as fibromyalgia (one of many diagnosis my relative has had).
Trying to be ready to roll into work early tomorrow for a couple of meetings/conference calls. Just feel like I don't have the umph to fight my way out of a wet paper bag tonight, but want to be bright, cheery for work. I love my work, I love my bosses - today just has been a hard day for whatever reason. I want to shake that blah feeling off and be my usual perky loud self tomorrow. I even let a client get under my skin in a bad way today - which has only happened a few times in the eight years I have worked at this job. Maybe the moon signs are wrong.
I'm a true Debbie Downer tonight. I know in the grand scheme of things one bad day is just a blip on the screen, but right now my sonar just can't see past this blipping bad day. Tomorrow is another day....tomorrow will surely be better!!