Thursday, April 14, 2011
I Hates Kidney Stones
Last week, thought I was done with kidney stone #2 for 2011. Ha! Of course, life could not be so easy. I was able to get to work Monday - yeah!!! Tuesday, I had to go to my PCP's office because I was in serious trouble from KS#2. I felt dehydrated even though I was drinking lots of liquids, and very little of the liquids was leaving my body. Signs of a very bad UTI and probably kidney infection, most probably from KS#2 cutting its way out. That explained that!!! I was nauseated, dizzy, and in pain. Stinking kidney stone!
I got my antibiotics, and got to work Wednesday. WooHoo!!! Twice in one week!!! Oh, nooooo - KS#2 pain again in the night - no sleep so I just went back into work earlier on Thursday. Got sicker and sicker and couldn't go to the bathroom at all. Around 12:30 I called it quits and went to the emergency room. I got fluids to help push whatever I needed to push out of my body. The antibiotic seemed to be killing the bacteria they found on Tuesday, so no change needed there. After three hours on an IV I was able to FINALLY go potty. I wanted to dance and clap my hands and sing the big girl goes to potty song, but I held back my glee. I did pass "debris" that was a result of KS#2's descent out of my kidney so hopefully this will be the end of that boulder.
Pain and discomfort tonight but nothing like last night. I'm going to try to sleep despite the thunderstorm overhead. Lightening hit my neighbor's transformer and he has no electricity, but luckily for me ours came right back on after flashing off after the lightening strike. Hoping to make it to work tomorrow again.
Going to a client's next week, taking a back seat while the new guy does the talking. This is difficult for me - I'm quite the talker, but I am so glad to be training someone to do this I will gladly zip it!!! I like traveling with the boss who will be going with us. This is someone I admire greatly. I worry that she is getting as burned out with all the travel and installation work as I am. It is just very hard to maintain a balance between home life and work life when you go from one intense implementation to the next.
Thinking of bosses, the Big Guy made me cry this week because he just said he was worried about my health and had I thought about just going on disability. He said he would be willing to work with me with whatever I decided. I had such a bad few weeks, with The Problem at home, my Mom, and myself and KS#2 and poopy pants and stress stress stress that the kindness just overwhelmed me. I can handle tough times much better than I can handle kindness and thoughtful consideration.
Have I ever said I love the company I work for and my job?? That even makes me sadder to think I really can't hardly keep going onward. I am going to get them through this next installation and reassess. I talked it over with my PCP this week and he said it should be a no-brainer for social security disability determination but having been a federal employee years ago I understand "No-brainer" might be more description of the process than I wish. I definitely would have bad enough luck to anger someone and make them use their "clerkly powers" against me. Sigh. I guess I shouldn't go buying trouble eh??
Health care is the conundrum I cannot figure out if I do decide to try for disability. I will make enough that the Medicaid spend down (if I qualify for Medicaid) would be so high as to be useless. I will just have to think on this. It is one of the main reasons I have not retired yet. Big sigh....