I Think I Still Have My Marbles

But They've Shifted Lately

Bad day yesterday, bad day today.  The Legs are not happy, and today The Headache was making itself know as I tried to work.  Sometimes I can tell when The Headache is not happy because I don't make sense.  I call people named Annie Angie, I can't remember words or just stop in the middle of a sentence, and I have to recheck work three or four times.  My typing and spelling goes downhill.  Hoping it's better the rest of the week.  I have recalibrated my head buzzer so should be good to go!

One of the guys at work thought I was better today because I wasn't using my cane to walk everywhere.  I just let him think that, but it actually was more weight I had to pick up to walk and it wasn't worth the effort.  I don't use the thing so I won't fall down, I use it so I can lean on it to stand or walk and have less pain in my nerves in my legs  - when the pain is maxing out I really don't see the purpose. 

I'll use my cane to walk with as I travel this week. I have some new muscle relaxers from Dr. SassyPants called Skelaxin which I am afraid to try until this weekend, so I guess I'll just have to tough it out this week because I have to drive.  I don't take anything that messes with judgement when I drive - The Headache is bad enough!

The epidural was a bust.  Not working for me.  Pretty sure that there will be no more in my future.  The benefit lasted for less than two days, and I think that was the anesthetic they use with the steroid.  Plexopathy must be a tough thing to treat. The physical therapists gave me more exercises to do since I won't be having anymore therapy for a few weeks, maybe more than a month since apparently summertime is their vacation time too.

Wishing I had some time for a real vacation where I could escape everything INCLUDING The Headache, The Belly, and The Legs.  They just seem to follow me around everywhere, the skunks. I guess my luxurious economy flight from Kansas City to Cleveland will be my only escape this summer.  I'm gonna try to skin out of doing the last trip to Cleveland in July, because I think I am going to have to be in Arizona at that time.

Burning Foots

Red Hot Nails

No sleep tonight, even with maximum medication.  The Headache is not happy, and The Feet are not happy.  The Belly was unhappy, but settled down, and The Legs are just grumpy.

Getting red hot spikes of pain, like claws tearing through the bottoms of my feet up to the tops of my feet.  Guess the epidural didn't quite fix this.  I have been "flossing" my nerves like the therapists suggested but really don't think it is working  or just not working fast enough.

The pudendal nerve pain picked up yesterday because I was doing laundry, where you pick up and transfer loads of laundry.  Any weight lifted that has downward pressure seems to bother this, not sure why.

My epidural had some positive effect for a couple of days, but seems to be wearing off rather than making everything better.  Maybe I just need to be more patient and positive.  I will send good vibes down to my legs to make them better.  I have my doubts that it will work, but why not give it a try??

I'm told I'm anemic now, perhaps why I feel so very very tired.  Maybe not sleeping might have something to do with the tired feeling too.  I have worked on a project for work most of the evening, probably putting in an eight hour day already because I need the distraction.  Because of the lack of sleep (it's 3 AM and no sleep in site) I may call in late to work tomorrow.  I have several things to do, but can compress them into the afternoon and stay late to further make up.

Wishing the foot problem gets better, as it is starting to radiate UP my legs.  I have been trying hard to remain positive about the physical therapy.  Inaction hasn't helped the pain any, so I am hoping some directed reaction to pain might be the ticket to wellness.  The pain is lessened by the injections, so can't tell if the additional pain was there, but masked by worse pain, or if the injections just weren't that effective.

Going to Cleveland Thursday, will stop at a client on the way to the airport on Wednesday, and if they feel the need may stop back for a short while on Friday.  Hoping they don't have a big list of little problems for me.  Sigh.  Gonna email my boss and update the "time off" calendar after signing off.