A Fine Day
I was able to work today! Not only did I work 5 hours but I had the brain power to solve several problems for customers. The Headache is down to its usual good day growl, and I'm not eating much so The Belly is feeling better too!
I felt well enough tonight to cook some tomato noodles for my mother and myself. My sister gave me the best Christmas present last Christmas - a year's supply of HOME MADE NOODLES! She makes the best home made noodles in the world (well except maybe my Aunt Nadine's). Instead of beef & noodles tonight I made tomato noodles which agree with The Belly better. Happiness in a pan. The picture probably looks yucky and maybe only my family would eat this but it topped off a happy day. I wish I had more days like today.
Of course, its my first day back at work after the trip to Cleveland. I guess one person was expecting me to come back with wires in my head. It was fatiguing to explain the same thing over and over and over. No, I didn't have a procedure. Yes, it was just to determine if I could have the procedure. No, I don't know anything yet. Yes I may have to take more time off work. They didn't mean to be tiring - its just that I have such a small store of energy it takes a lot to be "up" when working.
Bless their hearts they try to identify, but there is no way for them to know how much pain I can get in from The Headache. I pray I can maintain my dignity and not have them ever see how bad it can get - it's bad enough relatives have had to see it. It's bad enough I have to experience it, and I sometimes have to inflict it on strangers in ERs and urgent cares. I prefer my friends and co-workers to see me in control. It's one of the last illusions I have!
