DrowningI was going to write an entry for Diana Lee's headache blog on Coping with Headache Disorders. This is how dysfunctional my last month has made me - I can't Cope with writing a post on Coping.
I am underwater and running out of air. The surface of the water seems far away and it's light is fading and I don't have the strength to swim for it. I dream of quiet streams, floating in the current, allowing it to carry me to lands unknown.
I don't think I am Coping with anything right now. I am ReActing. Reaction is a response to immediate circumstances without any regard to success. Coping is a planned effort to better a situation and plan to avoid future bad Reactions.
I am planning to travel this next week. I am hoping just to survive without having to hit the emergency room. There will be several of us traveling together, and I won't have to drive. I am past being able to drive which is also something I am not Coping with very well.
I think I am just going to run away and join the Circus. Everything will be fine if I was with the Circus! Send in the Clowns - well maybe next year...
